It’s been a while since I wrote anything. I have to admit I have missed writing and interacting with you all.
It has been a very difficult few months for me since the birth of my miracle son last year. In that short space of time I have suffered ill-health, the deaths of both grandmothers and a battled with my depression. It would also appear that I have post-natal depression too.
I forgot to mention I went back to work full time when my son was only 3 months old. Was this too soon? Hell yes, but financially we couldn’t cope if I stayed off longer and took statutory maternity pay.
Having all these events happen in such a short space of time has definitely had an impact on me. I still having come to terms with my grandmas passing in February. I was completely and utterly knocked for 6 and it has left a hole that cannot be filled. Then my second grandma passed in May. I have all these wonderful memories to keep them alive forever but it’s not the same.
My work life balance doesn’t exist. I was great at keeping everything separate but they seem to have mingled into one. When I’m at work all I can think about is the little one and when I’m with him it’s the opposite and I’m thinking about work.
Most days I wake only to wish I could climb back into bed and sleep a little while longer. I must admit I have slept a lot more than I normally do but I’m always tired. Typical side effect of depression – people just think you’re lazy but there’s just so much to it.
I’ve also decided to take this blog into a new direction. I will still focus on elements of mental health awareness but it won’t be the primary element. I am going to reclassify as a lifestyle blogger which means I can cover a lot of the items that I’m passionate about. This includes products reviews, family day out ideas and ill-health (physical and mental).
I look forward to hearing from you all soon.